Inner strength to finally let go

Thank you for being the one who taught me how to stand up on my own 2 feet when the world deserts me.

Thank you for being the one who taught me how to live my own life.

Thank you for being the one who taught me to lower my expectations. 

Thank you for being the one who was still by my side even though you wanted me to be independent.

But most importantly, thank you for being the one who constantly broke my heart and taught me to be strong.

Our journey these 2 years wasn’t easy. There were alot of fights and arguments along the way over commitment issues and how I felt like you could do more. But they were all eventually resolved the moment you said “I love you”. I never thought I would ever have the chance to hear you say that to me because you were also so closed up, unwilling to let anybody in, to let anybody come close. But yet, you decided to open up your heart to me which I am really honoured and thankful for.

You gave me 2 years of something that I hope I would never have to go through again because it was 2 years of just pure dating. Of course we both know that that’s not true. We were in a way, friends with benefits but thank you for respecting me. While the 2 years have been relatively great, I really would not want to go through it again with another guy, to be stuck in a r/s limbo.

But I guess, we both finally came to a consensus on how we should end this amicably. We met up again and I think we both felt that something changed. We were no longer feeling as much towards each other than before. We were going back to the time when we were just friends which I hope will really work out.

So thank you. For the times you rained on my parade and in the process taught me how to be a stronger girl, a stronger woman. To have the strength and courage to leave and begin life anew.

Like you said, we were kinda lucky to have our honeymoon period for as long as 2 years. Perhaps it was cause we weren’t official and hence didn’t feel the need to commit to each other. But yet, we were still exclusive. It was ultimately a rather interesting experience. So thank you J.

Thank you for giving me the inner strength to finally let go.