The one who got away

Some point in our lives, there’ll be this one person whom you really trust and whom you feel you’re able to fully be yourself. In other words, this person is usually termed as your “soulmate”

So what happens when this “soulmate” decides to do something dumb such as to cheat? Or they just lost feelings for you? What do you do then? What are we supposed to feel? How are we going to react in a proper manner? To perhaps let things go? 

I don’t know really. But what I do know is that when that person leaves, it’s like a whole part of you have gone with him/her. The trust built up over the years has shattered into a million pieces like a mirror dropped onto the floor within seconds. Never will it be fixed. Or even if it is fixed, the cracklines still show, scars are left behind. 

You will feel vulnerable because after all you trusted that person wholeheartedly. 

Actions have consequences. What was meant to be an unintentional, thoughtless and mindless act can turn into something major as it snowballs into bigger things. Destroying relationships as a result.

Here comes the question of “what do we do now? Do we let go?” Logically speaking, we should let go. If he/she is able to do it once, what makes you think that he/she won’t do it again? A leopard never changes its spots. But how? How exactly are we going to let go? 

Seeking closure is probably one way. But it is not going to be easy. And I would know that because I tried a million times but failed making myself even more upset than ever. Running back to the man who broke my heart again and again.

My friend told me that that guy is like slow poison. You feel really good at the starting and then it starts to hurt. Since it’s slow, you slowly accustom yourself to the pain and slowly it turns into an addiction. The addiction of pain and sorrow emotionally. 

And this emotional addiction is almost equivalent to the physical addiction to drugs like heroine or cocaine.

But it should serve as a warning sign when you keep going back to the same man and getting yourself hurt. He/she no longer cares. He/she got away a long time before you did. 

And it’s high time we should all start leaving behind this abusive emotional r/s.